The hardest thing I’ve been struggling with in my anxiety and anorexia recovery recently is comparing myself to others.
The nature of both anorexia and anxiety is to make you feel inadequate and worse than everyone else, so when you see yourself eating more than others it can be a massive challenge to tell yourself that you’re not being a bad or greedy person.
A major part of my therapy and recovery has been to accept that I don’t have to deserve to have food and be happy, and that I am entitled to ask for and eat what I want when I want it. As any fellow sufferers will know it’s really hard to put this into practise though, and its easy to slip back into negative thought patterns.
When I’ve been struggling with this I have just tried to remind myself that it is normal that everyone is different. I wouldn’t expect my friends, family and partner to always want to watch exactly the same movie, listen to exactly the same music or dress exactly the same way as me so it’s irrational that I would expect them to eat the same as me.
There will be days when you want to eat more and times when you want to eat less than the people around you and it’s important not to judge yourself for when these peaks and dips in your appetite occur.
The truth is, if you’ve been suffering from anorexia and your body has been underfed for a long time then you probably will feel more hungry and want to eat more than the people around you but that does not mean that you are a bad person.
You’re doing an incredibly brave and difficult thing by choosing to accept recovery but it is the right thing to do. Try not to compare yourself to your loved ones because they are a different person to you and at the end of the day they don’t want anything they do to hold you back, they just want you to recover.
Follow your own path, fight your own battle 🙂 xx