One thing I still really struggle with in recovery is having ‘me time’ – time when I just relax and do something I enjoy for no reason in particular.
I still feel like I don’t deserve to just relax and treat myself, I feel like I should have done something impressive or worthwhile or good to others in order to deserve time to focus on myself and look after myself. During recovery I have got a lot better at resting and relaxing, but I often still struggle with just being kind to myself and giving myself a break.
Today I have decided to give myself a relaxed, ‘me time’ day and I’m trying to get used to seeing looking after myself as something normal and okay, and not something that I need to deserve.
For anyone else who struggles with ‘me time’ and your anxious or anorexic thoughts come in when you try to relax, here is what I have been reminding myself –
- Relaxing isn’t negative or lazy, it is an important and positive part of your life.
- You don’t have to do something impressive to deserve time to look after yourself, just by living your life normally everyday you are bringing happiness to the people you love and that is an amazing thing.
- You are getting stronger and you don’t want to reverse this process, your recovery is down to you.
- Relaxing and resting is crucial so you have the strength and energy to do the things you love.
When I was younger I used to love Winnie the Pooh and weirdly something A.A.Milne wrote in these stories has been helping me recently; ‘you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think’.
Give yourself some ‘me time’, you do deserve it 🙂 xx